Life's Purpose and how much of a pain it is...

So I've decided... keeping up with a blog would just be waaay too annoying so instead of that anytime I have some message to share I'm going to -blog- it on DeviantArt. I figured you can't go too wrong there and plus DA advertises it for you! Blogs are far too annoying for me. But warning you... I tend to ramble so keep reading if you really want to get what I have to say. I'm terrible at forming my words!

So... my message for any who may stumble upon it:

One's life purpose has always been the most difficult thing for humankind. We struggle to find our mission in life and what meaning our lives have! Why do we struggle with all of our pain and why does Creator seem to hate some of us and make our lives miserable???

I have been through a lot... in this life and a few lives before. I've been through pain and hell and terrible emotional turmoil. Yes, feisty, friendly, protective, loyal little me even wanted to kill myself when I was younger. My father was the worst person in my life, my parents were split, people in school hated me... My childhood was pretty much a steaming pile of shit ~ pardon my language.

I have suffered through years of shit and grown so much in myself but still... I have so much more to learn. I can't recall the quotist however "The day we stop growing and learning is when we are six feet under".

But this isn't a pity party! This is to tell you that even if you're in the deepest darkest place of your life you can find your way out! YOU are not wandering this world and if you haven't figured out what you're supposed to do yet then don't fret... Creator will send you back for another try, I know that ve-hery well.

You see... I discovered my life purpose... and right before I did were probably the worst months of my life in that I could not be happy, no matter what I tried. I was angry and sad and hateful a lot of the time, hiding in on my own. The only time I was "happy" was my facade online... What I'm trying to say is that I spiraled down and down until one day... this one picture, and describing what it meant to me... suddenly opened up my mind and I felt all that anger and hate flood off me! I came to this life, to this world to discover Empathy. I came to put myself in the worst possible place so that I could learn to conquer it and pull myself up! I have and am learning to step over my problems and strengthen myself so that I can help others, so that I can lead by example into fulfilling your dreams and your life! Creator did not make my life as bad as it was, I chose to be born to my parents in spirit, chose to be the underdog and now I'm better for it! Now I can help my friends and my family and I am someone for them to give them a hand and help them up. I've been there, I know what they are going through and I can help them overcome as I too overcome.

No.. .your life purpose might not be to help everyone around you and does drawing and owning a digital clothing business help me help people? Hell no. But it makes me happy, and my happiness brightens those around me. All I'm trying to say is not to loose hope. You are not wandering helplessly. You might be on the wrong road... but you are still going the right way even if you don't know it. Keep your head up and trudge through that quick sand and even if your up to your nose, don't give up. Ever. If I'd given up when I was eight years old and my father gave me a knife telling me to do it after I'd said I wanted to kill myself... I wouldn't be where I am now. Life is not MEANT to be perfect! If you really wanted perfection you wouldn't even be alive in the first place! You'd be up chilling in the clouds and laughing at all the stupid creatures fussing about. Without pain, pleasure would mean nothing at all.

Don't promise me anything because you probably don't know me from an ant on the sidewalk... but promise yourself and your loved ones... that you won't let yourself be overrun with "poor pitiful me". It gets better I know.. and no matter how bad your problems may be, because yes I know some people have it worse, you can't change the past... but you can better your future by starting with the present.